After so many years, a busy life come by again..
Wow.... It has been so long I did not write here.. I do have lots of things to write.. I guess when there was too many to say, I come to term not to say/write at all.. Yeah, to me life like that and always samemo samemo.. I was looking at my journey of life as nothing special.. Everybody has had my way of life.. Simple, content, loved, complete... So whats the point telling? :). But today, I have an urged to write about motherhood. A life full of challenge. I think it is interesting, at least to all mothers la.. Well, here my story for today; Today, I feel a bit strange. I felt depress. Alone. Ah.. Now, there's something to tell.. :P.. Yeah, i felt so down today. Felt like a loser. Failed as a mother. Today, my son kindie's teacher told me that my son doesn't want to write. He weakened his hand when teacher ask him to write. He actually can write but not firmly. I did not tell his teacher this instead I let the teacher tell me how to help him strengthen his hand. Actually i have never counter this problem with the elders. All learnt how to write naturally.. Now, this is new to me.. His teacher said, You must make him practice holding pencil, I did make him write but only occasionally. I don't want to get upset everyday, you see. Yes, it can be upset when he still he doesn't know actually he needs to hold and press the pencil harder. How to make him understand that? I did try to make him feel the meaning of 'hold and press' when do the writing exercise. I hold the pencil together with him and press his finger real hard to make him feel it and realize that's the way it should be hold. Which later i regretted it. or shouldn't i? If i did not press harder he will not understand it, I thought. But even I did pressed his finger hard, he did not get it. Haiyaaaa... How la..?? I actually cried because i felt sooooo frustrated with my self. What a mother cant teach his 5yo son to write?!! :'( Teacher also asked me to get him play playdoh. I did bought it but still he did not have interest to press and mould it. It wasn't that difficult to press a doh, right? But he wont do it.. I taught him making lots of interesting mould like car, ultraman, elephant and sort.. But still, he wont do i himself.. Loser mom!! Haishh.. I still feel a big rock on my head, shoulders and in my stomach.. Looks like this one really need extra attention.. Which requires all my time and energy.. Oh god, please give me strength..
posted by Mrs CzarAim @ 2:19 pm
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